4/05/2008

Hospital visit, new plan, cherish them

Max is being released from the hospital this afternoon after a semi-emergency check-in last night due to the blood and clots in his urine.

Yesterday at school the clots escalated to unimaginable size - small earthworm size. Apparently he passed three of them at school throughout the day, which he told us about after passing one at home that Andy had to help him with. There were tears and cries. It was simply awful and I don't know how he got through it at school. Earlier in the day school had called me and his teacher emailed that he had a lot of blood in his urine, but they missed the clots and Max failed to mention them until bedtime. (BTW - his urine looks like a blood donation - there's no urine.)

At 7:30pm Max and I were packing for an overnighter. We checked in around 8:30 - one hour past his bedtime already (he had fallen asleep during the car ride to the hospital) and he somehow stayed awake until 10:45. During this time he had all his vitals checked, port accessed, gave a urine (blood) sample, etc. He finally gave in and fell asleep. 30 minutes later we had to wake him up to insert a urine catheter to help pass the clots through his urethra. Not a walk in the park for a little kid nor his mother who needed to hold his hands and block his view.

His CBCs were low on HGB (8.1) and PLT (35) and he received a transfusion for each overnight while he slept.

During the night we found that the stupid catheter was not doing its job AT ALL. The clots wouldn't go through it and instead passed alongside it causing way more pain than he had without it. I had them give Max morphine after he went through that a second time and it was good thing. While waiting for the nurses to get it through the doctor's head that I insisted they removed the damn thing he had a third clot push passed - the morphine barely helped. There was blood all over the bathroom, towels, blankets - I left it all there to get the point through a little faster. I told them that I would not go through that again if it were me and I am not letting anyone make my child go through it again either. And, no, you can't take this one out and replace it with a larger one. It was removed.

At 9:15am this morning Max went into the OR for a cytoscopy. The urologist told us that he saw no visible evidence of cancer lesions, however, the blood that was flushed out was sent to pathology along with some small tissue samples of the bladder wall. He said the bladder looked consistent with what he would see in someone who has damage caused by something like chemo (cyclophosphamide). There is no medicine to help Max heal from this - only time will do the job. We will continue to see blood is urine until such a day comes when he is healed.

In the meantime, we are seriously concerned about his blood counts dropping after being off the oral low-dose topo for nine days. It is possible that the topo is still having effects on his marrow.

On Monday Max will start the new chemo treatment plan and he will also be set-up to receive more radiation. We are very frightened that his counts will bottom out and treatment will have to stop. This is where I don't know what to write. The cancer is spread thin in various places throughout his body. We don't know how quickly it is growing. We don't know if this treatment plan is going to work. We don't know if Max's marrow can keep up with the toxicity.

I look off to the left of my computer (Andy's old one) and see the paper weight that Lisa Sturt gave to us for Christmas: never, never, never give up. I will not. I have hope. I have strength that sometimes fails me. And I'm scared. Tears have come often today. I've asked myself repeatedly, "is this the beginning of the end?" I suppose everyday is...

Cherish your children even more than you do already. They are a gift from God for you to love and care for. They are magical, imaginative and beautiful in everything they do. Close your eyes and see it in everything they do, good and bad.

4/04/2008

Burglary

Hi - yeah, because we don't have enough to deal with already...

I come home from the zoo this afternoon and discover that the kid I saw on a skateboard around the corner from my house, carrying a computer bag just like mine - was carrying MINE! On Hannah's skateboard... with two laptops, some jewelry, the kids' allowance money, digital camera, etc...

What the hell!?! Ugh.

4/03/2008

Tongue

Thank you Deb, for such incredible pictures.


Treatment plan

CAUTION - diatribe ahead. Proceed at your own risk!

First, read this: http://mct.aacrjournals.org/cgi/content/full/5/8/1905 (thank you, Vikki)

Then, read this: http://cancer.ucsd.edu/aboutus/News/stories/fatigue.asp

You should now understand the reason we started MagicWater.

Now, read this: Max's treatment plan (Microsoft Excel file), developed by Max's team: myself, Melissa, Drs. Roberts and Sholler, Neil, Pat and Meryl. (plan also pasted below)

Last night, I was building the plan out on my laptop on the kitchen table, after two and a half days of emails, phone calls, & conference calls.

After reading the first two links above, you'll see why Max has to enter uncharted waters yet again in hopes of finding a treatment that will control his cancer (control being all that we're hoping for now).

We have good hope for this treatment, but we know the odds are against us. Our goal is to give Max's body all the help it needs to stay healthy, but also be aggressive in beating back this latest progression. If we can get back to stable, we'll adjust the treatment accordingly, then work extra hard to help try to find a long-term treatment solution.

For now, it's "all-hands" as his new treatment requires daily chemo, precise timing of adminstration of supplements, and diligent monitoring of progress (or lack thereof) of the treatment via blood and urine samples, MIBG, CT and MRI scans.

Dr. Sholler is also growing Max's cells in her lab and will be able in 2-3 weeks to test different agents against his specific neuroblastoma cells. This is part of the personalized medicine project being funded by MagicWater. This could help save Max's life by determining what treatments have the best chance of working before trying them on Max, and is widely regarded as the future of cancer treatment.

Max's new treatment protocol for next 2 rounds (6 weeks)
1. Irinotecan (10mg/m2 5 days IV x 2 weeks) topoisomerase inhibitor (chemo)
2. Temodar (100mg/m2 PO 5 days) alkylating agent (chemo)
3. Nifurtimox (20mg/kg PO divided TID - 4 pills per day 1 AM, 1 noon, 2 PM) oxidative stress
4. Zometa (4.0 mg/m2 IV over 1 hour) increase bone density
5. Rapamycin (3mg/m2 PO on Day 1, then 1mg/m2 PO on Day 2-7, on week 3) mTOR inhibitor
6. Genestein (250mg AM/PM) AKT inhibitor
7. Celebrex (100mg AM/PM) COX-2 inbitor
8. Glutamine (2g in AM) for Celebrex
9. Skullcap (400mg AM/200mg PM) lowers IL-8
10.AHCC (1500mg AM/PM) elevates NK function
11. Tauroxicum (2 drams/AM) lowers IL-6 and c-reactive protein
12. IP6/Inositol (1530mg 3x/day) lowers plasma VEGF
13. Zinc citrate (30mg PM) lowers ceruloplasmin
14. Calcium (500mg AM/PM) For Zometa
15. Vitamin D3 (1200IU PM) For Calcium
16. Radiation (S2, S3 vertebral bodies)

4/01/2008

Sucks less

Below, the report from Dr. Roberts on Max's CT and MRI that was performed today. All in all, not as bad as we were expecting, quite honestly. In other words, it sucks less than it could. New treatment plan will be posted tomorrow.

VMA 18.8 & HVA 21.8 on 3/27
LDH 1180 on 4/1 (highest since before stem cell rescue in Spring 2005).

"CT Chest: a small right pleural based mass in the lung, and a hilar mass (that is most likely the collection of lymph nodes that made the mediastinal area positive on the MIBG scan). They also described another lung lesion that was very small and they called it "questionable" as to whether or not it really is anything."

"CT Abdomen: normal"

"CT Pelvis: no soft tissue disease. The signal on the MIBG scan appears to be coming from the S2 & S3 vertebral bodies. The mass at S3 is larger than what is seen in S2. The prior thoracic spine lesion is essentially unchanged. There does not appear to be other bony disease in the pelvic bones."

"MRI Brain/Head: no brain lesions. There is a very small right frontal bone lesion in the skull. It was visible on the MRI scan, as the fat saturation was adequate to make the skull bones interpretable. The CT of the skull was not done."

3/31/2008

Ring of Fire (the song)



Hannah has a love for lyrics and so what better storyteller than the man in black himself, Johnny Cash. At a very young age Hannah was introduced to Johnny Cash and now has a love/hate relationship with his songs (thinks they're sad/thinks they're good). A perennial favorite with her and Max is Ring of Fire. With Max's increased exposure to skate culture, I decided to try out Social Distortion's version of the song on Max, which he loves (and I love that he loves). Supposedly Nic was chiming in, "ring of fire!" with Max but that wasn't caught on the video.Below from Sunday's trip to the San Diego Aerospace museum. San Diego has a long and colorful history of aviation, but Max is most enamoured with the P-40 Tomahawk, which I completely understand and support. However, like his Pinewood Derby car, it's long on looks and somewhat short on performance. Nevermind, he likes what he likes for the right reasons.



Finally, since Nic... wait, he's mentioned so little that maybe I should explain. In case you were wondering, Nic is our third child. He not only suffers from 3CS (3rd Child Syndrome meaning he can make his own toast at 2 1/2, watches way too much TV and way too much TV that is too violent for his 2 1/2 years but then what are you to do if you have a 6 and 8 year old and they want to watch Kim Possible and Battle 360 all the time?) but he also suffers from SHC (Sibling Has Cancer meaning his needs are frequently and consciously neglected in support of the greater good cause of taking care of Max). Below is Nic being allowed to get way to close to the railroad tracks that run through Del Mar, while throwing rocks from the trackbed that are coming dangerously close to people walking down the path below. Stuff his older brother and sister never got to do, but since he suffers from 3CS and SHC, something that he gets to do.



Update

Just to keep you all in the loop, Tuesday Max is lined up for the following:
  • CT Scan - to determine bony vs. soft tissue disease in comparison with the mibg scan
  • Brain MRI - to see if the spot on his head is in the bone or tissue
  • Urology appt - to check on the blood in his urine
  • Clinic CBCs, urine, chemistry panel
Andy & I will also have a conference call with Drs. Roberts & Sholler to determine the best treatment strategy.

Thank you for all your kind words and thoughts. You're giving us strength.

3/29/2008

So, what do we do?

Note: this post is a combination of both Andy's and Melissa's comments and writings, interlaced together. Best if you don't worry whether you think Melissa is making Iraq war analogies, or if you think Andy is writing about himself in the third person (as I am right now but not below).

Andy & I were able to meet with Dr. Roberts, Max's oncologist on Friday afternoon to discuss treatment possibilities. Of course, there is no protocol for how to treat Max's neuroblastoma any longer - again we had "the discussion" as to whether or not we wanted to do anything at this point. And again, we agreed on a course of aggressive, but smart (ie, managed toxicity) treatment. Or to put it into the War in Iraq analogy, we're trying to kill as many insurgents while minimizing civilian casualties. Not an easy job either way. But whereas the value of fighting for Iraq is questionable, the value of fighting for Max is unquestionable. I can't see how a reasonably logical person could think otherwise. So, we're fighting.

Let's be clear. There is no cure, there is no established route to success. Our goal in this effort is time - time that extends our chances of finding something that is curative, or guaranteed to stop the disease for the long-term, and which his body can tolerate. So we have to keep him here, and we have to keep him healthy. In other words, we don't have to kill the enemy, just contain it. If we can do that with acceptable toxicity (such as we had for the better part of the last 16 months), we'll have succeeded in our goals.

The MIBG scan indicates both bony and soft tissue disease (soft tissue we think in lymph nodes near the heart and in his pelvis). A CT scan has been scheduled for 4/1 to hopefully give us a better idea of where the bony and soft tissue disease are. Max still has the urology consult appointment 4/1 after which we'll see if the doc there can make quick with the cystoscopy and tell us what's causing the blood in the urine.

So, what do we do?

First, we're taking Max off the topotecan because it appears that he progressed while on it. We'd like to put Max back on cyclophosphamide but can't if the bladder wall is damage by it.

For those of you interested, here is what Max is currently taking daily. Much of this is directed at stopping metastasis. IL-6/8/10, c-reactive protein, ceruloplasmin, VEGF - all are blood factors associated with angiogenesis and metastasis.
  1. Glutamine-gut protector
  2. Nifurtimox-trial drug; weakens NB cells
  3. Celebrex-cox-2 inhibitor; anti-inflammatory
  4. Skullcap-lowers IL-8
  5. Genistein-hormone blocker used in breast cancer
  6. Prevacid-stomach upset
  7. Promethazine-anti-nausea
  8. Zophran-anti-nausea
  9. olive oil-fat & calories, omegas
  10. ImmunoKinoko-increases NK cell function
  11. Vit D-aids in calcium absorbtion
  12. Acidophilus-immune health
  13. Melatonin-G-MCF stimulator
  14. Bromelain-platelet stimulator
  15. Calcium Citrate-calcium boost for Zometa infusion
  16. Milk Thistle-liver function
  17. Tumeric (curcumin)-anti-inflamatory (also makes Celebrex more effective)
  18. Shark Liver oil-platelet stimulator
  19. Fish Oil-omega 3's, fat
  20. Zinc Citrate-lowers ceruloplasmin
  21. Taurox- lowers IL6 & C reactive protein
  22. Cellular Forte w/ IP6 & inositol-lowers plasma VEGF

Andy and another neuroblastoma Dad are using this weekend for some R&D on what Max's treatment possibilities are. Some clinical trials are a possibility, most likely we'd come up with our own mini-trial which is nothing other than a unique combination of agents suited to Max's individual needs. We are not limiting ourselves to facilities on the west coast and have told Dr. Roberts that we will do whatever takes, go where ever we need to go.

More on next post including possible agents/trials we might use, and which will be discussed during a conference call Tuesday with Dr. Roberts and Dr. Sholler.

3/28/2008

Bad News Confirmed

Dr. Roberts received the radiologists reading of Max's mibg scan and has confirmed yesterday's fears as real. Max's MIBG does show abnormal areas in multiple places: the skull, middle of the chest, the pelvis, both thigh bones, and the left knee. We will be meeting with him soon to discuss a game plan. Already he is working on getting CT scans for Max to determine if the cancer is bone or soft tumor. That's all we've got so far this morning.

3/27/2008

Stardate: 20080327

No, I'm not a trekkie, but I feel that "out there" right now.

Max went in for his MIBG scan this morning and there were spots all over the place. Spots = neuroblastoma.

His scan started with his head where I saw a V shaped spot enhanced. Text to Andy: "spot on his head" send. Then we go down to his check/back area where I see the original spot looking pretty good. Lightly enhanced, maybe a little smaller. Text that info to Andy. Move down to the abdomen/pelvic area. hmph, I've never noticed it being so enhanced in this area. Uh-oh, the tech is taking another picture of that area. Not good. Text info to Andy. Now we're at the legs and there's a vertical line on one thigh and a bright circular spot on one knee. Text to Andy. Response from Andy: F%*k F%*k F%*k. I concur.

So I'm sitting in the Nuc Med scan room, Max is watching a Seuss movie while going through the scanner, I'm staring at the computer screens with all this crap on them, and I'm trying my damnedest to keep it together while the tech, also named Melissa, is also trying not to lose it because she knows that I know what I'm seeing up there. She can't say anything as she's not a doctor - and not Max's doctor. Max is blissfully oblivious to the whole scene as Horton Hears a Who! is very entertaining.

After the scan Max & I had to walk over the clinic to drop off a urine sample, me fighting back tears the whole walk and Max pretending to be on a bear/deer/hare hunt with his new cap-rifle. All the nurses we see and know are in clinic and I just couldn't even tell them what I just saw because I knew I'd start crying and not be able to stop. So we hustled out of there and I took Max back to school. Max feels great right now, no apparent pain, aside from complaining about his mickey button in the evening.

We do not have the official results or reading from the radiologist yet. It will come sometime tomorrow. I think the shock of seeing the scans has worn off - a little - and I'm ready to hear what the plan will be to combat this invasion of Max's little body.

Max & Nicky in Idyllwild this past weekend running around shirtless outside, making owl hoots, in 50 degree weather. (that's freezy cold in So Cal, btw)

Max sportin' his new "real" cowboy hat courtesy Papa and the Pony Express Trading Post in Idyllwild.

He's one tough hombre.

3/20/2008

Don't put off 'til tomorrow...

Yesterday morning Max awoke with a red pull-up and lots of fairly large 1cm blood clots in his morning pee. (He is having no pain… breath in, breath out.) We gave Max 300ml water as soon as we got downstairs. His next pee was still red with only one clot. We immediately emailed Dr. Roberts who set Max up to come right in and have an ultrasound taken. AHHH – everybody to the car! We have to make it to radiology by 9:00am!!

So there we are at the hospital. Max had a 9:00am ultrasound of his kidneys and bladder, then came to clinic to have his CBCs checked and have the doctor decide what to do about his pee. He had to provide another urine sample and by this time his pee was plain ol’ yellow! (It’s interesting that with some good hydration his urine clears up.) Dr. Schiff - another wonderful oncologist - ordered a BK test on his urine that will tell us if he has a certain type of viral infection that occurs in the bladder. It takes about one week to get results. A positive result will require a special IV antibiotic. Max also has an appointment with the urology department on April 1 to review the ultrasounds and all the urine tests he’s had done recently. Due to Max not being in any pain when he pee’s, and his urine clearing when he’s well hydrated, this “blood in the urine” deal is not an emergency… and hopefully we stay in code yellow.

Max’s HGB was also low (7.6) so he got to stay for a blood transfusion! Time to pink up those cheeks and fuel up for the weekend.

Max and I were at the hospital from 8:50 ‘til 5:00. Believe it or not the time went by quickly as Max was shuffled from the radiology department to clinic, to the exam room, back to clinic… oh, back to radiology again, and his final stop: clinic! Don’t put off until tomorrow what you can do today!

3/18/2008

Living life, old senators and Winston Churchill

A crazy thought has been swirling around in my head lately. That despite the grim outlook facing us, we ARE living life to the "max", we are experiencing life fully .... amplified .... the good and the bad. Priorities are clear: Max #1.

Senator Arlen Specter is coming out with a new book about his battle with pancreatic cancer titled Never Give In. Being the exciting guy he is, I'm sure it will be a page turner. Don't get me wrong, pancreatic cancer is a killer.... (it's almost as bad as relapsed neuroblastoma). Because pancreatic cancer strikes older people, and more of them, the funding and research effort is much, much greater (about 5x the number of newly diagnosed per year, with over 20x the funding, versus neuroblastoma). Political power and political pandering make for a wonderful combination of mis-placed priorities, in my opinion.

Another excerpt from Winston Churcill's 1941 Harrow school speech:
Do not let us speak of darker days: let us speak rather of sterner days. These are not dark days; these are great days .... and we must all thank God that we have been allowed .... to play a part in making these days memorable ....

Some photos
Max and Luke this past weekend at Legoland.


Last weekend. Lest Pat Lacey think he's cornered the market on kids that "disappear" into the other room, only to have broken out the paint and started using their bodies as a canvas, I present Max and Hannah who in a fit of 5 minutes of unsupervised time outdoors, stripped and started using their bodies as paint rollers on the patio. Look closely and you'll see handprints and buttprints. Try that in Boston in March!

A reason to get up every day

Below, a link to an article in today's New York Times about a little girl being treated at the Dana Farber Cancer Institute in Boston. She had a brain tumor and was considered terminal. Her father enrolled her in an experimental study. “It won’t save her, but it may help other people,” but then he added, “Maybe it will save her.”

The approach is called metronomic, low-dose or antiangiogenic chemotherapy. It was pioneered by a remarkable man, Dr. Judah Folkman. More than the ingenuity of his ideas, I am more impressed by the stories I've heard about how Dr. Folkman would listen to, and work with, any parent who dropped by his lab, desperate for a treatment that might save their own child's life.

It is that kind of hope and optimism that propels us in what we do with the MagicWater Project. And it is with researchers and oncologists like Folkman that we work with, who are never too busy to sit down with a desperate parent, and discuss how they can save a child's life.

Last summer and fall, we put Max on a modified version of the drug combination used in the trial mentioned. The trial consisted of low-dose, oral Cyclophosphamide, Etoposide, Celebrex, Thalidomide and Fenofibrate. Max was on the first three, but it was difficult for him to tolerate both chemos (first two) at the same time. Now, Max is on orally-administered Topotecan, Celebrex, and Nifurtimox. In addition, he is back to taking Curcumin which has been shown to display significant tumor properties in-vitro and in-vivo (but in one study it was contraindicated with Cyclophosphamide so that's why we stopped using until recently)

Where were we...? Oh yes, the article link:
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/03/18/health/18seco.html?em&ex=1205985600&en=902861333e61ca8d&ei=5087%0A

3/14/2008

Article on MagicWater Project in Carmel Valley News

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CV father’s MagicWater Project dedicated to working with cancer researchers and oncologists to speed up discoveries of potentially life-saving new drugs

•Fundraising coordinator needed

By Catherine Kolonko

About three years ago, a little Carmel Valley boy, Max Mikulak, was diagnosed with a type of children's cancer that is difficult to cure. When the cancer returned after traditional treatment, his parents began an odyssey through the world of science and medicine in search of new drugs that might keep him alive.

Max was displaying symptoms of anemia, including a lack of energy when he was diagnosed in 2004 with high-risk Stage 4 neuroblastoma, an aggressive pediatric cancer that is diagnosed in about 600 children per year in the United States, said his father Andy Mikulak. The cancer is more prevalent among babies under the age of 1 but much deadlier in older children. After the age of 2 the survival rate dips drastically

“If you wait another year and it sticks around, it becomes a deadly killer,” said Andy.

Neuroblastoma is a disease in which malignant cancer cells form in nerve tissue of the adrenal gland, neck, chest, or spinal cord. By the time it is diagnosed, the cancer has usually metastasized, most often to the lymph nodes, bones, bone marrow, liver and skin, according to the National Cancer Institute. Usual treatment options for severe cases like Max's involve high doses of chemotherapy, radiation and stem cell transplant.

For about a year after his initial treatment, the cancer disappeared but Max, now 6 years old, had a relapse in 2006 and has been battling the return of the cancer for 16 months. He's had most of the traditional treatments for his disease and there are only a few options left, none of which are very effective, Andy said. That dearth of treatment possibilities led Max's determined father to reach out to other parents in the same situation, not only as a support system but also in a hunt for new life-saving drugs.

“We were kind of thrust into this new world where you're on your own as far as treatments,” Andy said.

“All of a sudden you start to become an activist and you start to think 'How are you going to save our kids' lives.'”

Almost 80 percent of kids with cancer are essentially cured and become long-term survivors but then there are the 20 percent that don't, said Dr. William Roberts, an oncologist at Rady Children's Hospital in San Diego who oversees Max's treatment. For children with relapsed neuroblastoma “The outlook is not good,” Roberts said. “The number of kids surviving is about 30 percent, which is pretty dismal.”

For that reason, Roberts said he understands the mindset of parents like the Mikulaks who are open to trying something innovative with the idea of “What can we do differently to try to gain some ground?”

There are “tons and tons of drugs out there that might work” but have no visibility because there is no business reason to pursue them, said a frustrated Andy Mikulak. It is unfair that approved treatment options are so limited just because of the relatively small number of children affected by the deadly cancer, he said.

Last year Andy and Neil Hutchison, a San Diego father whose son also has relapsed neuroblastoma, started the MagicWater Project (www.magicwater.org), a foundation dedicated to working with cancer researchers and oncologists to speed up discoveries of potentially life-saving new drugs for children with relapsed neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma. Their goal is to find innovative, low toxicity, new treatments through funding of clinical trials and other research.

The foundation name was derived from the explanation by the parents of an 18-month old girl about why she needed chemotherapy. “He just called it magic water,” Andy said.

“We all have our own mechanisms for dealing with this with our kids,” Andy said, referring to the challenge for parents who must explain cancer treatment to their very young children. Calling the foundation magic water seemed appropriate for the foundation because it symbolizes hope and pays tribute to that little girl who eventually lost her battle to cancer, he said. “It's kind of the inspiration for what we're all working for,” he said.

Funding for MagicWater is done mainly through networking and from friends and family. Since its inception, a couple of people have written checks for as much as $100,000 and another $25,000 was acquired through a fundraiser at Max's school, Andy said. He compares the MagicWater project mindset to that of a venture capitalist who seeks investments that are high risk and high return, and notes that it is much different from a traditional cancer foundation that is more conservative, like a bank, he said.

“It's meant to speed up the process by which an agent can get tested in neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma,” Andy said.

One course of treatment now showing promising results initially caught the attention of researcher Giselle Sholler, a Vermont doctor. She had heard about a case reported by physicians from Brown University who treated a child for a parasitic disease known as Chagas who also happened to have neuroblastoma. The administration of the antibiotic nifurtimox, long used in South America to treat tropical illness, seemed to have an unexpected benefit on the cancer which went into remission.

“She started looking at it and thought it might have some interesting anti-tumor properties,” Andy said.

Nifurtimox was not approved for marketing in the states but had been available for years in other countries. In further lab testing of the drug, Sholler found that it appeared to shrink or kill neuroblastoma tumor cells. Her findings eventually led to a phase 1 clinical trial that included Max as a patient. The trial was designed to test the safety and toxicity of the drug in combination with a regimen of chemotherapy.“Sometimes you just have to go on these Phase 1 projects and hope for the best,” said Andy.

The results were “very encouraging” and that trial has opened the door to getting the drug available for other children, said Dr. William Roberts, Max's doctor at Rady Children’s Hospital in San Diego. Although the trial's objective was to determine the drug's safety profile, “Clearly there's a whole world of information, so you don't want to ignore it,” he said.

A phase 2 clinical trial headed by Sholler is underway in Vermont to further investigate the use of nifurtimox alone or in combination with other drugs as treatment of relapsed or refractory neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma. Children’s Hospitals in San Diego, St. Louis, and Atlanta are also expected to participate. The MagicWater project donated $150,000 to facilitate the study.

Another project that MagicWater recently funded with a $100,000 grant is research conducted by Dr. Donald Durden, scientific director at the Aflac Cancer Center in Atlanta and a professor of pediatrics at Emory University School of Medicine. He is conducting research in in vitro and animal models to discover novel combinations of new drug agents that could slow or stop the progress of neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma. The goal is to find the right combinations of agents that could then be tested in clinical trials with pediatric cancer patients.

One compound resulting from Durden's work may soon be tested in a clinical trial, he said. The low toxicity drug, which appears to be well tolerated, will soon be submitted to an investigational review board that monitors U.S. drug trials and ensures the safety of participating patients.
Durden said he understands the sense of urgency felt by parents who want to find new treatments that might save their children.

“You might say we're not waiting around,” he said. “We're trying to push the envelope a little bit. It's not like they have a few years to be thinking about this because the kids are going to die.”
Meanwhile, Andy and others involved with the MagicWater project continue to search the Internet and network with other parents, researchers, and doctors to find possible drug candidates worthy of funding while Max and other children like him fight their courageous battles with cancer. Max recently started a new round of chemotherapy and his daily medications are adjusted regularly based on their toxicity and efficacy.

Andy Mikulak and Neil Hutchison, MagicWater cofounders, are working to build the organization and they are currently seeking someone who can coordinate fundraising for the project. More information is available on the Internet site, including blogs, with updates on Max and other children can be found at www.magicwater.org.

3/13/2008

Another busy week

Max is in the procedure room in clinic as I write this, having a bone marrow aspiration (BMA). BMA’s show if there are any cancerous cells in his bone marrow. He has to be anesthetized and then the doctor “punches” a needle into his back hip bones (ileac crest I think) bilaterally (both sides, left and right), sucks some marrow into a syringe, and then sends ‘em off to pathology. This time we’re also having some cells sent to Dr. Sholler in Vermont for her to check out.

Tuesday Max was in for an MRI and next week he’ll have his bone scan. We are really hoping for some good results – a little smaller spot on his spine would be nice, wouldn’t it? My hopes are that the last set of scans we had taken may have been a little too close to the radiation he received and were still showing enhancement (cells DYING!!) I can be optimistic as long as I don’t overdo it.

There seems to be a lot of really good energy in clinic today. It could also be that I just finished a huge cup o’ jo… nah.

Max is feeling considerably better this week and seems to be completely over his stomach bug. He’s also gained a kilo back and is up to 20.2kg. He’s having minimal nausea and is not throwing up. Yay!

Max was able to start back on chemo this week. Thank goodness. It’s been almost a month since we had to stop his oral cyclo. It sounds funny to want your kid ON chemo, but when the alternative is that the cancer may make a breakthrough – chemo is definitely a good friend. Due to the blood in his urine we have suspended the cyclo and started him on oral topotecan, low dose, daily, skip weekends. He’s had three doses and his nausea is very minimal – hope it stays that way!

Speaking of the blood in his urine, Dr. Roberts has ordered an ultrasound of the bladder to see if there any blood clots that may have been formed when he had the stomach bug. If there’s a clot that could explain why his urine is sometimes clear, sometimes red, sometimes has little clumps (little bits breaking away here and there). This would be the best scenario I believe. They might be able to flush his bladder and clear it out a bit. Second scenario we talked about is he could have bladder wall damage either caused by a viral infection (going back to his stomach bug) or caused by the cyclo chemo. To figure this out he would probably have to have a visit to the urologist where they would use a scope to look around in there and see how bad the damage is. It could be just the top layer, or it could through a few layers. The latter needing much more recovery time, possibly months.

In the meantime, his blood counts are awesome today!
WHT 2.8
HGB 9.5
PLT 126
ANC 1988 !!
Max and Dr. Roberts discussing the intricacies of fighter jets,
bombs and shooters therein - and which one is painted the coolest.

3/09/2008

Don't be a skater hater


Tony telling Max that his son has the same shirt but has written all over the skull's head. What is it about little boys and skulls... oh, the pirate thing, right....



Tony doing a hand-plant, Max's favorite trick, right in front of him.



Bucky Lasek and Max.

Max and Sam were treated to another skateboard adventure on Saturday as Clash At Clairemont took place. Max's skate-n-destroy first-grade teacher Miss Sturt and her husband Daniel hooked us and the Hutchison's up with VIP tix to the event. Max originally didn't want to go, but that was just him being lazy. nce we got there, the music, the crowd and the tricks all got him going. The event was very family-friendly and it was mostly kids and families. Cool!
Thank you so much Lisa and Daniel for the fantastic time. Thanks Tony and Bucky for the cool photos. Thanks Tony for being so cool that you make time for Max and Sam.

Tony Hawk at Clash At Clairemont. We were in the VIP area which gave us very close access to the skaters. The boys loved it... then we got to go up to the top of the ramp!





3/07/2008

Connecting the dots

Just in case we don't get to update during the weekend, a quick update on the week's events...

Max is finally starting to feel better, ie, back to "normal", normal being a kid with deadly cancer who doesn't eat but receives 98% of his daily caloric intake via a tube that empties directly into his stomach. But what's normal these days anyway??

Numbers recap:

Good trend, a bit more data than last Saturday's March 1 post:

LDH (normal range is 470-900)
2/21: 609
2/27: 1143
2/28: 803
2/29: 676

VMA (normal range <8.5)
9/24/07: 9.5
10/8/07: 13.2
10/22/07: 13.3
11/5/07: 13.1
11/19/07: 11.7
12/3/07: 10.6
12/17/07: 12.8
1/14/08: 11.1
1/28/08: 10.4
2/21/08: 17.4
2/29/08: 8.4

Max has lost over 2 kg since getting the intestinal bug (1 kg = 2.2 lbs), in other words, a lot given how little he has to spare. He's back to looking pretty skinny compared to the photo at the top of the blog, and he's pale as can be, and almost bald so he looks quite different again. I'll post a picture this weekend so you can see - we've been lazy/busy in other areas lately but I know a picture says it all.

Max will be starting again on chemo today. His counts are good: ANC: 1250 and platelets 110K (his minimum platelets to be on chemo is 50K, which we lowered from the previous limit of 75K otherwise he'd never get chemo). So it looks like his bone marrow has finally recovered from the whammy of the IV topotecan late January. Max will be starting on oral topotecan today, a decision made by the possibility that the cytoxan he's been taking orally since July '07 has damaged his bladder (he's had blood clots in his pee fairly consistently for the past 3 weeks). Which if turns out to be the case, he can't use oral cytoxan any longer which will be a challenge for us as it appears to have been well-tolerated and (as far as we can tell), effective against his cancer. However, looking at the most recent VMA and LDH numbers, maybe the topotecan really did a bang-up job and is what we should be focusing on using going forward? Unfortunately, there are no simple, definitive answers with relapsed neuroblastoma. Everything's a informed crap-shoot at best.

On the propoganda and advocacy front, this week was busy...

Yesterday, Max was on San Diego radiothon supporting Children's Hospital. He was on 95.7 and 94.1 I believe. Melissa said he did great, was interviewed twice, and got a toy aircraft carrier out of the deal so everyone's happy.

Next week, there will be a feature on the MagicWater Project in our local newspaper, The Carmel Valley News/Rancho Santa Fe Review/Del Mar Village Voice, which is a really good local newspaper combination.

The MagicWater Project is also having discussions with Amy Marcus, WSJ reporter who is on leave working on a Robert Wood Johnson Foundation project focusing on orphan diseases. She's interested in our model, and of course our outcomes. Who knows what may come of these discussions, hopefully some good visibility and credibility for what we're doing. Like Steve Jobs' 2005 commencement speech at Stanford, hopefully this will all make sense at some point in the future.
"Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward... But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later."

3/03/2008

Reference #s

I've had some requests that we clarify the numbers we're watching on Max's blood and urine markers.

These are the normal range for CBC (complete blood count):
WBC white blood cells 4.0-12.0
HGB hemoglobin 11.5-14.5
PLT platelet 140-440
ANC absolute neutrophil count 1500-5000
LDH 470-900

These are about normal for Max:
WBC 1.0-2.5
HGB 8.0-11.0
PLT 50-150
ANC 500-1200
LDH 600-700 (we watch this as it can indicate NB activity)

In order for Max to begin a chemo round his blood counts need to be:
PLT 50
ANC 500
These numbers were 75 &750 in the past, but we've had lower them in order to keep Max on treatment. When Max goes below ANC 500 he in considered at risk of getting an infection (neutropenic). If he were to get a fever of 101.5+ he would need to be checked into the hospital to receive IV antibiotics for up to 10 days.

Urine markers we watch are called cathecholamines, aka HVA/VMA:
HVA <9.0
VMA <8.5

Max's fluctuate between:
HVA 12-20
VMA 10-18
Andy keeps a graph charting the points to watch for any steady rise in the numbers which would indicate NB activity.

Andy referred to Max's LDH spiking this past week which gave us a huge scare in conjunction with the HVA/VMA numbers being higher than usual. It turned out that because Max had a red blood transfusion on Tuesday it artifically increased his LDH in his CBC (complete blood count) on Wednesday. When you receive a transfusion there are LDH in the red blood and they can increase the longer the blood sits on the shelf waiting to be used. Which translated into Max's LDH being twice what we normally see and which put Andy & I into orbit until Dr. Roberts soothed our fears (and the LDH #s dropped as he said they would).

I hope this helps!

3/01/2008

Max feeling better

Max woke up this morning (Saturday) wanting food (well, to get Nutren via his g-tube which is his version of food). So far, so good.

More good news. LDH is down. So that really was a false alarm this week but, regardless of the extra work it involves us, our friends and family, and the good folks at RCHSD, it's better to be paranoid and react immediately than wait. This cancer is so aggressive, so difficult to predict its behavior, that I'd rather over-react versus the alternative.

LDH (normal range is 470-900)
2/27: 1143
2/28: 803
2/29: 676

2/29/2008

What a week!

Let’s start with Monday: Max had his usual CBCs after school and we learned that he needed another red blood transfusion.

So we came back on Tuesday for the blood and spent the afternoon in clinic pinking-up his cheeks. That night he woke up at 3:30am and began throwing up every 20-30 minutes.

Wednesday morning we headed back to the clinic with a throw-up bin in Max’s lap and no where to leave Nic (mom and dad are not answering their phones!) who woke up with a fever that morning (no feverish kids are allowed in the Onc clinic!). We had to stop in a Jack in the Box parking lot shortly after leaving the house so Max could throw-up – yet again. I couldn’t get in touch with my Mom and Dad who usually take Nic so I phoned my sister Randee at work and gave her a job: come get Nic and find out where mom and dad are, because now I’m worried about them! (I can’t quite explain to you how truly lucky we are to have family on-call, ready and willing to help us in any way they can. Thanks, mi familia! PS – mom and dad were grocery shopping and feeling fine; they kept Nic for the rest of the day.) Max kept track and by 10:30am he had tossed his cookies (if we could only get him to eat cookies!) twelve times! He was looking very green. Poor guy. The doctor decided he had a viral bug in his tummy and there’s not much you can do except keep hydrated, which was not possible at home because he couldn’t keep anything down – not even a sip of water. He was given IV hydration for the day and sent home hoping that it was a one day bug. Nope… Max went to bed really early and slept well until about 2:00 am when he had a Code Brown (poo). No diarrhea thank goodness. Nic felt crappy all night and was up from 11:00 – 4:00am. Hannah also made a visit to our room due to a bad dream.

Mommy and Daddy were crazy tired Thursday morning when Max woke us up with a technicolor yawn. Back to the hospital again for more all-day IV hydration. I took Nic to the pediatrician while Nana sat with Max in clinic to see what his problem was: double ear infection. Ouch! Max finished up his daily hydration and we headed home late afternoon. Max continued to barf on and off through out the evening but somehow got a pretty decent nights sleep until… I dunno… 4:00am? Who’s keeping track? We can’t anymore.

So now it’s Friday and Max is still a sicky. He takes a sip of water and several sips of something in an odd color come right back up. He spent the day in clinic again getting hydrated. The question this morning was what do we do over the weekend? If we get admitted and stay the night there will be a room for sure in the ward. If not, we can’t be guaranteed that they would be able to hydrate Max. Luckily, Dr. Roberts came up with the (obvious to me now) plan of having HomeCare set us up with an IV pump and gatorade water to administer at home. Never thought I’d be happy about having an IV pump in my house…

We’re home for the weekend. Max hasn’t thrown up since this morning but has a lot of “I think I’m gonna” moments that are not fun at all. He had some interest in food today (wow!) and even ate a few chow mein noodles for dinner which was surprising. Hoping this stomach bug is working itself out of Max’s little tummy and that tomorrow brings a barf free day!

2/26/2008

Complexity

We put Max on IV Topotecan for 5 days January 28-February 1. Since then, his blood counts hit the ground and haven't gotten up to any reasonable level since. Look at his numbers in January and February and you can see the cliff dive they took right after the 5 days of Topotecan:


Legend: VMA/HVA=urine markers indicative of tumor cell activity - disregard HVA. WBC=white blood cell. RBC=red blood cell. PLT=platelets. ANC=absolute neutrophil count

His VMA level shot up to a recent high - 17.4. And just today I was admiring the nice downward trend. We'll measure again late in the week to see (hopefully) if it was a fluke. If not, it probably means that the cancer is getting active. For reference's sake, at official relapse in November '06, his VMA was only at 22 so it doesn't have much higher to go before alarm bells start to be sounded in the Mikulak household.

His VEGF, a blood factor that is an inflammatory marker signalling new blood vessel growth (angiogenesis) and thus tumor growth, has gone up from 40 on 1/14 to 113 on 2/12. The normal range is 31-86 pg/ml so something is going on. Sickness and/or an inflammatory response (ankle sprain, etc) can also raise VEGF, so its not entirely isolated to cancer activity.

Nevertheless I am personally very nervous - more so than usual. It's probably due also to the fact that we lost two precious kids the past few weeks (Eden Bruskow and Michael Haley) who were very similar to Max in that they were both taking nifurtimox for relapse and had been doing so for a while (Michael since before Max).

So, we continue to wait for Max's counts to climb so that he can get on his oral cytoxan again. In an attempt to get his counts up, we are pulling out all the stops - shark liver oil for platelets, and calf liver for RBC. The trouble is these remedies take time and he needs to get back on his chemo now.

On a more positive front, in today's WSJ an article about newer cancer drugs and some trends which these indicate medicine is heading, all of which favor the approach we are taking with the projects we are funding through MagicWater:

  • Personalized medicine - our first project in this area soon to be announced.

    "Now that we understand that everything is doggone different, I think we have to look at each patient completely," Dr. Sugarbaker says. "What we need to do is pair up the right patient with the right drug."

  • Looking at drugs developed for other, large-population (ie, adult) cancers and other diseases and testing them in neuroblastoma.

    ...progress in developing cancer drugs may require targeting them to tiny groups of patients.
There are many things in this article I disagree with also. Such as the notion that the only way to fight cancer effectively, is to do gene testing on an individual's cells to determine the appropriate treatment. But a counter-point in the article was also rendered.

"Finding a mutation in a tumor doesn't prove the mutation caused the tumor."

In the end, the only thing that matters if you are battling cancer is, "does it work?"


Study: More Complexity In Tailoring Cancer Drugs
By KEITH J. WINSTEIN
February 26, 2008; Page B1

The genetic mutations in cancer cells may vary in every patient, a study found, suggesting that drugs will need to be tailored more finely to small groups.

The small study, by doctors at the Brigham and Women's Hospital in Boston and scientists from a gene-reading unit of Roche Holding AG, is among the first to look comprehensively at the genes in cancerous tumors to find which genes went awry. It's part of a new wave of medical studies using cheaper ways of reading DNA -- the chemical blueprint found in every cell -- that promise to change the understanding of disease.

The doctors, led by David Sugarbaker, a surgeon, examined four patients with a rare and deadly lung-sac cancer called pleural mesothelioma, which strikes about 3,000 people a year. The results were cause for hope and chagrin: of four patients studied, each patient's tumor had between two and six genes that had mutated, when compared with healthy cells from the same patient. Such mutations are thought to be causes of cancer. But every patient's tumor had a different group of mutated genes, and no gene was mutated in more than one patient.

That could explain why chemotherapy drugs work well in some patients and not at all in others, the doctors say. But it also means that progress in developing cancer drugs may require targeting them to tiny groups of patients. The study was published online yesterday by the journal Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.

The findings suggest that companies may find more success with drugs like Genentech Inc.'s Herceptin, which targets a genetic mutation found in about 20% of breast cancers; and Novartis AG's Gleevec, which attacks a particular mutation found in certain kinds of leukemia.

But it also raises the uncomfortable prospect that cancers in some patients may be so unusual that the cost of developing drugs to treat them might be prohibitively high based on the market that could benefit from them.

Dr. Sugarbaker argues that comprehensively surveying the mutated genes of patients' tumors might help in figuring out which existing cancer drugs can work on which patients. "Now that we understand that everything is doggone different, I think we have to look at each patient completely," Dr. Sugarbaker says. "What we need to do is pair up the right patient with the right drug."

But some geneticists say that approach isn't yet cost-effective. In the study, it cost more than
$100,000 per patient to read out a tumor's genes and compare them with healthy cells from the same person -- and that was using newer, cheaper methods of DNA reading from Roche's gene-reading division, called 454 Life Sciences. Roche is one of several companies trying to make gene-reading technology more affordable. Others, considered less reliable, offer similar technology that could, if verified, bring the cost to around $12,000 per patient, the authors of the study say.

"Whether it's at all clinically useful is way premature," says Bert Vogelstein, a cancer researcher at Johns Hopkins University who published similar research, on breast and colorectal cancers, in 2006. "The problem is interpreting the results." Finding a mutation in a tumor doesn't prove the mutation caused the tumor, Dr. Vogelstein says.

The study published yesterday said the genes examined "could be causally related to cancer." The study didn't look at every single piece of DNA in the tumor cells -- just pieces that were active.

Cancer is believed to occur when a body's DNA, or deoxyribonucleic acid, changes during the many generations of cell replication that occur as a person ages. Each of the six billion letters that make up DNA have to be copied to make a new cell.

The copying process isn't perfect, so the DNA of two different cells in the same person might have 10,000 differences, according to various estimates. Normally those copying errors are harmless, but if enough changes, or mutations, occur, a cell can turn into a cancerous tumor that takes over the body.

The National Institutes of Health is spending $100 million to fund a much larger study, called the Cancer Genome Atlas Pilot Project, that aims to map out mutated genes in brain, lung and ovarian cancers. Preliminary results may be released later this year.

Dr. Sugarbaker contends that understanding the bad genes in tumors will change the way they are classified and described. Today, physicians examine a tumor under a microscope to figure out what kind of cancer it is -- a process known as biopsy. But in the future, "that biopsy will not go under a microscope," Dr. Sugarbaker says. Instead, he says, "every patient is going to need a [DNA] sequence done on their tumor" and cancers will be classified by their mutations, rather than broad categories such as lung cancer or breast cancer.

However, Jason Bielas, a researcher at the University of Washington who has written skeptically about such studies, questions whether DNA reading is worth it. "It doesn't seem like at this point that it is cost-effective to go down any route that uses this type of data to design drugs," he says.

Yet some believe that yesterday's study and others like it suggest a future where individual physicians could order a custom drug that attacks the particular mutations in a tumor without harming healthy cells. Even today, scientists can go to the Web site of the Ambion division of Applera Corp., a gene-reading company, input the DNA code of an undesirable gene and buy a chemical that can "silence," or neuter it, in a test tube. Several companies are working on such "gene silencing" techniques -- also called RNA interference -- including Merck & Co., Alnylam Pharmaceuticals1 Inc. and Silence Therapeutics PLC. But they are far from being ready to be used on cancer patients.

"The RNA interference strategies are actually showing quite spectacular results in the laboratory," says Richard Gibbs, director of the Human Genome Sequencing Center at the Baylor College of Medicine. "This is precisely the kind of study that opens up the prospect of using these tools for intervention."

Write to Keith J. Winstein at keith.winstein@wsj.com

URL for this article:http://online.wsj.com/article/SB120399752255692957.html

2/25/2008

Max stands up

Melissa and I attended the Rancho Santa Fe Unit Rady Children's Hospital Auxiliary annual fundraiser this past Saturday night. For cancer parents, this is our "night out" but in this case it was an enjoyable evening in its own right.

The reason why we were there wasn't because we're huge givers to RCHSD (though our insurance is!), but because Max was featured in the introductory video... you know... the one intended to break hearts and open wallets. Well, Max delivered once again. The evening's take was just north of $1.3M. It blows me away. If we could get a quarter of that for MagicWater in one night...


We'll post the video as soon as we receive a copy. It's quite good and Max of course looks very cute. The producer that put the intro video together has offered to put together a longer version that features only Max for fundraising purposes.

What would you do if this were your child?


I wanted to write an update regarding the Magic Water Project (MWP) foundation that I and a couple of other cancer parents launched in June 2007.

First some background: our mission is to discover and fund innovative treatments for neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma that are less-toxic and more effective than present standard-of-care therapies.

The reasons for doing this are clear:

  • The cure rate for neuroblastoma has not improved significantly in the last 20 year (20 years!!!! – but hey, I can blog from my cell phone so as a society we’ve got our tech priorities in order).

  • The limited number of available treatments for neuroblastoma – in particular relapsed neuroblastoma – are highly toxic to such small bodies, and a significant percentage of the kids fighting neuroblastoma with these treatments die from the side effects. To illustrate this fact, Max has received over 20x the amount by volume – not adjusted for weight - of toxic agents that Lance Armstrong received for his testicular cancer.

  • There is a significant amount of research on cancer, but not much of it gets applied to neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma. Instead, market forces favor research dollars and effort being directed at large, adult populations of cancer – breast, lung, prostate.

  • There are thus opportunities to attempt to apply a large amount of the research findings from other cancers to neuroblastoma and medulloblastoma, with the goal of quickly determining efficacy against tumor cells in the lab using cell and animal models, then making the determination if a phase 1 trial makes sense.

  • If we do all of the above, and quickly, our goal is that we will SAVE OUR KID’S LIVES!

The MWP has started hosting a quarterly meeting – a group of parents, researchers and oncologists – to discuss, decide on, and fund treatments which we think may be effective against these aggressive cancers.

Our second quarterly meeting took place January 28 in NYC. The report of this meeting, and associated presentations by the attending researchers, is available at the MagicWater Project website via the link below. If the link doesn’t work, you can select the text and copy-and-paste into your browser.

http://www.magicwater.org/news/2008/2/23/report-of-winter-2008-magicwater-project-meeting.html

Please take a look when you have a chance, and please forward this post to anyone you think would be interested in helping us to achieve our goal. We have open volunteer positions available, and need all the support and help – financial and volunteer – that we can get. Our spring meeting will be held in San Diego April 17th, immediately after the American Association of Cancer Researchers (AACR) annual meeting at the convention center in downtown. Anyone interested in helping us in any way is welcome to attend the spring MWP meeting, just email me for details.

2/22/2008

Jack's Essay

Get your kleenex's out. Paul Saxon's brother Jack - wise beyond his years - wrote a beautifully poignant and sad school essay on the death of his younger brother. Were I to ever express such a difficult, tender moment as good as he does... please read.

http://saxonreport.blogspot.com/2008/02/essay-jack-wrote-for-school-assignment.html

Paul Saxon Racing


Needless to say, we feel very confident about winning this year's Pinewood Derby for Pack 734. Paul Saxon, as you all know, passed away July 14, 2007. He was a huge NASCAR fan and his favorite driver was Jeff Gordon in car #24. Well, Paul, Max is doing the driving on this one, but we've got your name and number on the car to hopefully help us win the big trophy.

2/20/2008

Your comments...

Just wanted to let you all know that we enjoy all the comments left on our posts and we wish more people would join in... don't be shy!

2/19/2008

Eden Brunskow

What a sad week. Eden Brunskow passed away last night. She lived in Orange County too, just like Michael Haley. In fact, their dad's had offices right next door to one another. For both of their kid's to pass away so closely to one another is difficult to fathom.

Neil and I had the honor of meeting Eden and her dad Paul last October in Vermont. They were staying at the RMH in Vermont when we stopped by during the morning before our first MagicWater Project meeting there. Eden was so cute during that visit. She reminded me a lot of Max - subtle, quiet in speech and demeanor (at least at that time), but with lots to say and lots of intelligence to back up what she was saying.

2/18/2008

"Mommy? I wonder when my cancer is going to go away?"

I don't know, honey. I just don't know.

Max's last comment to me tonight as I tucked him into bed. Funny, how he comes up with these comments at times when Andy & I are incredibly stressed about his cancer.

The topotecan we decided to add to his cocktail really hit him hard and threw us for a loop. His bone marrow seems to be way weaker than we would have ever guessed. In the two weeks since his topo treatment he's needed one red blood transfusion and two platelet transfusions and his counts continue to be low. His marrow recovery has been incredibly slow. This is one of those things we just didn't want to see happen.

Winter

Max and I got home from the hospital at about 9:30 last night. Not the idea I had for a president's weekend Sunday night but as any cancer parent will tell you - if you weren't good at being flexible before cancer, you learned real quickly once you started dealing with problems big and small.

Max got his hair buzzed on Saturday morning. The topotecan that we added to the mix is taking its toll on his body in more ways than just his bone marrow. He's off all chemo until his platelets stabilize (but not everything else - nifurtimox, celebrex, and all his other anti-inflammatories...even threw some artemisinin in for good measure). He started losing his hair again, and with it getting into his mouth at all times, he and we thought it best if we cut it mostly off. I'm not sure if he likes it, but this time, I have mixed feelings on the hair loss. Irrationally, I like to see it - visible proof that something is working (who knows if its killing cancer cells but those dang hair cells it certainly is killing!). On the other hand, I'm ready for him to be "normal" again and not stand out.

Back to the hair cut. Instead of taking Max to a kid's salon, I took him to a proper barber shop that I frequent in Solana Beach: 10 chairs lined up and staffed mostly by old guys in their 60's, 70's and I bet 80's. Nothing but sports, car, and fishing mags in the racks (Max loves the fishing mags - grouper and trout are his favs). Also, coffee and doughnuts on the weekends, and a straight-razor touch-up on the neck and around the ears. I love exposing Max to guy-stuff. He digs hanging out with the boys so much - loves the banter. Loves jokes. Loves getting and giving grief to other guys.

It's been an interesting 3-4 weeks here in San Diego - weather wise. We've been having some fabulous family outdoor adventures in January and February. Nic is a champ and able to hike quite a long distance and at a decent clip before getting tired. As he's only 2 1/2, this bodes well for the family getting out and doing some real adventuring in another 3 years or so.

This weekend, in addition to our unexpected visit to RCHSD, Max went on a couple of hikes at Torrey Pines State Reserve, and played at the beach.


Saturday outing with Cub Scouts den 6.



Sunday at 17th street, Del Mar.



Sunday night - getting platelets, tired.



Monday morning, Torrey Pines State Reserve, Red Butte (rebel base), fighting the stormtroopers.


Torrey Pines Lodge circa 1910 overlooking Carmel Valley and Torrey Pines state beach.

2/17/2008

Sun 2/17/08 - Max coming home from Hospital!

Andy just sent me a text message that they are in the car and on their way home! Yay!

Max's platelets were low again... 16. So he stayed for a transfusion. Max had a reaction to the platelets this time wihch is why they were there so long. Toward the end of this transfusion a rash broke out on his legs so the nurses had to monitor him longer and wait for instructions from the doctor on-call. (It's quite common for kids to react to platelets. Max gets pre-medicated with bendryl and tylenol each time because he started coughing during a platelet transfusion and his throat became tight a long time ago. Now I guess we add "rash" to his reaction list.)

Blood did show up in his urine sample as well. This could've been a by-product of the low platelets so nothing is being done about it right now. We'll monitor his pee at home to make sure the blood stops with the transfusion he just received.

That's all for tonight... sleep well.

Sun 2/17/08 - Max off to hospital

Max and Andy are off to the hosptital this afternoon. Max had what appeared to be blood in his urine this morning and definitely this afternoon. The on-call doc said to bring him in for blood and urine analysis to see if his platelets are low and if he may have a urinary tract infection. Low platelets cause bleeding and easy bruising. (Platelets are in the blood to make it coagulate when you get a cut. If they're too low you just bleed.)

I'm guessing they'll be there for several hours waiting for results and even longer if he needs a platelet transfusion. We'll let ya know...

2/16/2008

Max Medical Update

Here's what's been going on since the medical update two weeks ago:
  • Max has needed a red blood transfusion and platelet transfusion. Both dropped rapidly since the IV topo.
  • Max has had to check in at clinic every 5 days (instead of his usual 7 days) to have his blood counts monitored. His ANC has been under 500 for about week, which always sucks, because we're always on the look out for a fever which would land him in the hospital for several days.
  • Max's scalp finally let go and started letting his hair fall out - all over the pillow, all over his clothes, in his mouth and in all his hats. Andy took him to the barber shop today and had it buzzed off with a #1 guard (if you're not a guy, the #1 is the shortest you can go with the clippers before it's considered shaving).
  • Max is still feeling great, has lots of energy and is as cute as ever. He went on a beach hike with his cub scout troop this morning for 3 hours! They hiked down Torrey Pines beach and up the cliff from Flat Rock to the visitors' center then down the road and back to the car.
  • We stopped Max on Friday from taking his oral cyclo (chemo) in hopes that his blood counts will go up and he can start the oral topo and cyclo on Tuesday.

2/13/2008

Michael Haley

We met Larry and his 6-year old son Michael in Vermont last March. Michael passed away last night at home in Orange County, CA. A wonderful blog entry on Eden Brunskow's site sums up what this all means to us.

2/04/2008

Max Medical Update

Max started an additional chemo drug this past week to see if we can't knock that spot on his spine down. He had IV topotecan M-F and did great. We'll continue with the topotecan two weeks from now in an oral form that we can give to him from home along with the oral cytoxin he's been on since last summer. Hopefully he'll bear this combo better than the VP16 (etoposide) we tried on him a few months ago.

As for side effects, nothing yet. No overwhelming nausea... in fact his appetite increase a little(?). Isn't that strange? He ate a few things over the weekend and had mashed potatoes and 1/2 a chicken leg tonight. We're waiting to see what happens with his hair. :-( He's got a nice head o' hair right now and I'd hate to see him lose all of it again. He doesn't mind being bald anywhere except school. Too many kids stare at him and I know they don't mean to - but he looks very different bald.

He's going to the hospital tomorrow morning for a blood transfusion. He hasn't had any transfusions in quite a while. The IV topo definitely caused a drop in all his numbers.

As for Max, he looks and feels great right now. He's a regular ol' first grader to the general public. I hope everyone remembers that his outward appearance does not always reflect the battle that rages on inside his body.

It's a guessing game trying to figure out what to do to save our son. What treatments he can weather, how to tweek them to work best for Max. There is simply no plan in place for kids with recurred neuroblastoma - because the cure hasn't been found yet. This is in our minds every minute of every day.

1/26/2008

Sat 1/26/08 - Max Home!

Whew! Max's blood counts were A-OK and he and Andy were home 2 1/2 hours after they left. He still has a fever and feels very yucky, but he's home in his own bed. Good night!

Sat 1/26/08 - Max to the Hospital

Max spiked a fever this afternoon of 103.7 which means he has to go to the hospital to make sure he's okay. Okay being that his blood counts are still high enough to fight the foe causing the fever. If the counts are low (making him neutropenic) he has to stay inpatient and receive IV antibiotics for as many days as they say is neccessary. Sheesh - we haven't had to do this for along time!

Andy headed to the hospital with Max around 3:00 this afternoon with an overnight bag just in case. They will go directly to the oncology ward, have Max's blood drawn, then wait for results. I hope they'll be home soon.


Matthew, Max & Jack ready for a superhero mission.

1/24/2008

Where's Sam and Max?

Bob Burnquist (aka, owner of the world's largest skateboard ramp), has invited Max and Sam to Fallbrook to hang out during one of his backyard ramp sessions. Click on the videos to get a sense of the size of this thing. Upon viewing it, Max declared, "are we going there today?"

Soon.

Thanks, Daniel for your sense of humor in making this video, and Lisa for putting up with him!

1/23/2008

How is Max?

We never did touch on the official results of Max's last scans. Andy & I were able to speak with one of the radiology doctors and look at the scans with him and Max's oncologist. It appears that nothing has changed.

The spot is still there.

It hasn't increased or decreased in size. It's just there.

With Dr. Roberts guidance weve decided to ramp up treatment a little and add topotecan (chemo) to Max's diet. He's been on this drug before and did well with it. We're not sure if he'll take it orally or IV. Max has a clinic appointment tomorrow and we'll find out then.

We are disappointed the radiation Max received in October didn't do more. I think I was hanging on to this notion/hope/wish that the radiation was going to take care of that spot and the scans would show a much smaller spot or nothing at all. But it's still there.

On a lighter note, Max is weighing in just shy of 50lbs! He's a little fatty now! His legs are all filled out, he has a belly and his spine and shoulder blades don't stick out. He looks great and feels great. He gets the Nutren Jr. formula all night a 2-3 times per day, plus we finally got our act together and figured out how to get those veggies into him without cooking, grinding, puree-ing, and straining them to make them go through the IV tube: Juicer. Duh! It hit me in the head like a bag o' carrots last weekend as I was throwing out the last batch I had made that was going bad in the frig. We picked up a juicer that day and love it! The kids have a blast with it, too. Max's buddy, Jack, helped and tried carrot/broccoli juice. He liked it! (blech)

Max is in a taekwondo class which is perfect for balance, coordination and aggression. Nothing like punching and kicking air for 90 minutes to clam a six yr old boy down. And he loves his white jacket and pants. Cub Scouts is going great - another cool uniform to wear.

Overall, Max looks great and feels mostly good most of the time. He still had problems with throwing up; we think he has a super sensitive gag reflex more than him feeling nauseous. He enjoys running around a lot more and doesn't tire out so quickly.

Hearing Aide Found!

What are the chances? Amazingly enough Nicky had nothing to do with the disappearance of Max's hearing aide. I found it in one of the many treasure boxes Hannah keeps on top of their dresser. It had fallen through a small hole in the top. Whew! 6 1/2 days of torture is over and we're all happy!

Isaac Lieser


Isaac became an angel today. He was trying to get on the Phase 2 nifurtimox study but infections and complications prevented him from getting to Vermont. Please visit his site if you wish to and pass along some words of love and hope to his family.

1/20/2008

Hearing Loss associated with lost hearing aides

Well, I knew something like this would happen eventually. We have officially lost one of Max's hearing aides. (For those of you familiar with the cost of hearing aides you should exhale that Gasp! you just made before you pass out.)

I'm not totally sure about this story but this is what I think may have happened...
We're getting ready for school Thursday morning. Shoes on, hair brushed, jackets, check! Max and Nicky are squabbling upstairs about something (yes, a six yr old fighting with a two yr old). The two yr old grabs the hearing aide and throws it somewhere because he's mad a the six yr old. Let's go you guys - to the car! Finally, they're all buckled in (or strapped down - which ever you prefer) and I have to run back in for the hearing aides. Hmmm, there is only one here on the dresser. That's a problem. Run back downstairs to the car, "Max, there's only one. Do you know where the other is?" Max, "No." That's helpful. "Nicky, did you put Max's hearing aide somewhere?" Nicky, "Yes." Ok, get him out of the car to show me where the thing is. He says in the trash in the upstairs bathroom and under the red chair in the family room. Ugh - gonna be late for school. Back to the car. Here Max just put this one in for now and I'll bring the other when I find it.

It's been four days, the cleaning lady has been here and looked for it, I've dug through our trash FOUR times and even went through the vacuum bag, I've emptied drawers... the damn thing is gone. I'm short of breath just thinking about it. And I'll tell what's gonna happen: we're going to buy a new one and the lost one will show up.

Any audiologists out there who can cut me a deal on a high-end hearing aide?

Article about hearing loss & neuroblastoma patients

This article was published in Pediatrics - the Official Journal of the American Academy of Pediatrics: Hearing Loss, Quality of Life, and Academic Problems in Long-term Neuroblastoma Survivors

I thought it was interesting as we are already trying to help Max in every way we can with his schooling. Max's hearing loss is small. He can hear without his hearing aides, however, it is almost impossible for him to differentiate between sounds like B P T G D and the like without his aides on. He also has trouble with the TH and F sounds verbally, which they hit on. It's a bit lengthy, but if you're interested you can skim through it pretty quickly.

1/05/2008

Never, never, never give up!

Miss Lisa Sturt - Max's teacher - wrote us a wonderful letter accompanying the gift that she gave us for Christmas. The gift is something we'll always treasure - a silver paperweight with the simple phrase engraved on it, "Never, never, never give up!"

More significant is the letter that accompanied the gift - the story behind the gift. I thought that her letter was so perfect in capturing the spirit and essense of our fight, that I wanted to share it with everyone. Lisa graciously said yes to my request, allowing her inspiration to reach the greater family that follows Max's battle against NB via this blog.

Christmas 2007

Dear Andy and Melissa

When my dad was fighting his own battle against cancer, he adopted one of Winston Churchill's famous remarks as his motto:

Never, never, never give up!

It is widely believed that Mr. Churchill in addressing the boys at Harrow school, stood up, said these five words and sat back down. And while that would have been very impactful, the truth is he did deliver a full speech. I've copied some of it below as I feel it embodies what you are doing with the Magic Water Project and to give you encouragement to continue in your battle for precious Max:


(The speech was made 29 October 1941 to the boys at Harrow School.)

You cannot tell from appearances how things will go. Sometimes imagination makes things far worse that they are; yet without imagination not much can be done. Those people who are imaginative see many more dangers than perhaps exist; perhaps many more than will happen; but then they must also pray to be given that extra courage to carry this far-reaching imagination...

Never give in. Never give in. Never, never, never, never -- in nothing, great or small, large or petty -- never give in, except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never yield to force. Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.