tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post6293448161101232605..comments2023-08-02T08:48:38.920-07:00Comments on Max Mikulak - neuroblastoma angel: for realAndy (Dad to Max)http://www.blogger.com/profile/15957283970526429773noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-87831194508314376152009-10-23T17:18:53.301-07:002009-10-23T17:18:53.301-07:00I have the chills writing this and tears in my eye...I have the chills writing this and tears in my eyes. I think of your family so often and of your sweet and wonderful boy Max, whom I never got the chance to meet. As a parent, my heart aches for your loss. I just want you to know that there are so many of us out there who still think of you, pray for you, and who will always remember him.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-66441702103331809162009-10-22T21:25:47.689-07:002009-10-22T21:25:47.689-07:00We miss Max too and think about you guys everyday....We miss Max too and think about you guys everyday. xo, Shannon & FamShannon B.https://www.blogger.com/profile/06735054835214948760noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-66514899639813606852009-10-22T18:42:35.659-07:002009-10-22T18:42:35.659-07:00Andy and Melissa,
I too think of Max everyday--I ...Andy and Melissa,<br /><br />I too think of Max everyday--I see one of his pictures at work or at home and it takes a moment to realize he is gone from our presence. I remember his many expressions and mostly his smiles and I smile. Missing him is more a longing to just see him or hear that wonderful little voice. What I wouldn't give to hear him say "Don't talk to me!" Max has left an impression on so many people and has changed my life more than any other person. He has changed the way I live each day. Thank you Max for everything and thank you Andy and Melissa for continuiing to share your journey with us. I could never imagine what you go through every day not having Max to hold on to. Love you all very much-Annee RaneeRandeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02285418683631417382noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-58666276943601171302009-10-21T20:56:15.452-07:002009-10-21T20:56:15.452-07:00Andy,I have nothing short of an enormous feeling o...Andy,I have nothing short of an enormous feeling of pride and<br />gratitude to have a son who handles the grief of immense<br />loss with such sensativity. I always feel your mother smiling down on you from her still present energy field.You have within you the very best of her.<br />DadAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-40740734981621842002009-10-20T18:39:03.459-07:002009-10-20T18:39:03.459-07:00As much as we are hurting now, what would life be ...As much as we are hurting now, what would life be like if we would never have had Max to share in our lives. There would be no sadness but there would not be the memories, the love, the joy of knowing this special little boy who made such an impact in our lives.<br />I wish he were still with us but in my heart he will always be close and loved.<br />NanaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-22566596905986834942009-10-20T13:05:59.308-07:002009-10-20T13:05:59.308-07:00I think of Max everyday, sometimes with tears and ...I think of Max everyday, sometimes with tears and sometimes with a smile. I too, wish I had special words to comfort you. Just know you are loved and in my prayers. <br />I will forever miss our Max.Thelmahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02255213006407709575noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-25875420304715770042009-10-20T12:04:45.072-07:002009-10-20T12:04:45.072-07:00Andy,
You are NOT weird! You are doing what make...Andy,<br /><br />You are NOT weird! You are doing what makes you feel close to Max at the time and thats OK! I wish there was something I could say to ease your & Missy's pain. But I can tell you we love you all and miss Max so much.<br /><br /><3 Jenee<br /><br />P.S. I kinda like ur shaved head:)Jeneehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17340668308594414319noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-53005465563840967532009-10-20T09:29:45.315-07:002009-10-20T09:29:45.315-07:00Andy & Melis,
Those of us who spend our days...Andy & Melis, <br /><br />Those of us who spend our days in your presence know that you are fine on the outside, and still deeply mourning on the inside....because we too, are fine on the outside, and still mourning on the inside. You are not alone. We have not forgotten. We have not moved on to a new cause. <br /><br /> While our mourning is VERY different because you have lost a child, and I have lost a friend and shared in the loss of your child, I think of Max daily - sometimes hourly. He truly changed my life forever. Your family has changed my life forever. The way you managed his care, the way you allowed him and challenged him to continue living life to the Max, the way you have shared your emotions---good and bad---through this blog, has changed my life. The impact of that change does not go away. Some days it may not be as visible, but the impact remains the same. <br /><br />I feel intense joy and sadness in the same exact moment when I look at Nic in his PJ's smiling from ear to ear, and I see such a strong resemblance of Max not too long ago. I feel an overwhelming sense of loss when I listen to the intonations of Hannah's voice and think that it could be Max speaking to me at that very moment, until I look into the rear view mirror to double check my sanity. I feel frustrated that Max isn't riding in the car "physically" right beside us singing along to the blaring radio, as I know that he hears us and is with us, yet he isn't. And then I am cautious about the music I play, because I want to be sure that it doesn't stir up emotions that I know I, and maybe Hannah, can't deal with in the presence of others. <br /><br />The constant loss for words, the desire to move forward but the inability to let go, the wanting to hug you but not knowing if that's just too much for that day, the not knowing when and how to ask about how your nights are - or the moments when you are alone and no one is around - it's all there. I can't imagine your grief. I don't want to imagine your grief. It hurts too much as it is. <br /><br />But do know this....when you need that hug, my arms are open. When you want to say Max's name in every sentence, I am willing to listen. On days when you need space, I will understand. Our friendship is new and fresh, yet very deeply rooted. Death, like birth, connects people on a very intimate level. It brings us to our core, raw being, and once we have experienced that with one another, I truly believe that we are changed as people. <br /><br />Much, much love -and big hugs today-<br />LeighLeighhttp://www.mindfulbirthandparenting.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-52233870609358265172009-10-20T07:16:45.520-07:002009-10-20T07:16:45.520-07:00Tears tears and more tears for Max....I can't ...Tears tears and more tears for Max....I can't fathom the pain Melis and Andy and I fear it so dreadfully I can't even enjoy "today" most days....I struggle so much with the concept of knowing too much...knowing what is coming.....<br /><br />I am so sorry Max is gone. HIs "happiest day of my life" singing just tears my heart out, and does make me cry....donna ludwinskihttp://www.caringbridge.org/visit/erikludwinskinoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-41436487177802833002009-10-20T06:36:07.381-07:002009-10-20T06:36:07.381-07:00rats! it's only 6:32 am and you've got my...rats! it's only 6:32 am and you've got my make up running down my face! the biplane being at the airshow via Max was very cool! however, tank tops and picking pumpkins shouldn't be a combo...it's fall, you need sweaters to pick pumpkins. missing max, too. thanks for the post. xolisaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-36293409342257306032009-10-20T06:19:38.779-07:002009-10-20T06:19:38.779-07:00I also miss you very much MaxI also miss you very much MaxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-58994225039848405582009-10-20T04:28:15.425-07:002009-10-20T04:28:15.425-07:00I miss you too Max.I miss you too Max.Breehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13037975986903881669noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-15466783888933223272009-10-19T23:54:10.737-07:002009-10-19T23:54:10.737-07:00Congratulations on choosing to experience your liv...Congratulations on choosing to experience your lives with gusto and bravely soldiering on.<br /><br />"Never, never, never give up."<br />- Sir Winston ChurchillAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9911796.post-58800560933034005472009-10-19T23:34:29.558-07:002009-10-19T23:34:29.558-07:00Lonely times without your boy-- I'm sorry.Lonely times without your boy-- I'm sorry.Kathyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14682272042615851184noreply@blogger.com